attitude is everything...

A lot of people have expressed how Cat and I are inspiring. We help others to realize maybe certain things aren’t as bad as they seem. A lot of people have also asked me if I had any idea how many people care about me and love me. It is very hard to estimate the number of people who have shown support to us since this began. Put these 2 thoughts together and we are helping people at the same time they are helping us. By no means did we ever think we would help other people by sharing our thoughts and experiences. We started the blog for 2 reasons. One was to share with family and friends results of tests and future doctor visits. The second reason was sort of a release. It is our version of therapy to put down thoughts and results on paper. So many nurses and doctors have asked if we need to talk to a therapist to help us deal with our situation. For the people that know me very well therapy was never going to be an option. I am the last person I can see laying on a couch complaining about my problems and crying to a stranger about my illness. What can a therapist (shrink) offer me that my wife cannot? She and I have spent a lot of time talking and crying and doing what we think helps deal with our situation. If you ever need to talk and need someone to listen, Cat is the best person in the world, probably better than Dr. Phil.

Music. It is something that is very hard to listen to without crying. Music, certain songs, certain bands all remind you of a happier time in life. I never imagined that it could strike such a sensitive spot in my mind, but it does. I listen to music rarely ever because of the sensitivity and emotions that it delivers. When driving to the doctor, Cat and I never listen to the radio or a CD. I never listen at home either. Since I became sick I have probably listened to a total of 3 hours of music. That is 3 hours in approximately 3 months. It used to be at least an hour or two every day. I cannot explain why it is so difficult but it is one of the hardest things to do. Starting today I am going back to listening to music. I am supposed to have a good attitude and positive outlook to help overcome this illness. I believe if I got back to listening regularly, it would help with my positive attitude.



  1. You have always been so fun to be around. I wouldn't think some stupid illness would change that. :) You always have a way to make people smile and laugh. Keep your head up and jam out to the music and release all the emotion you need so you can focus on you two. You have a wonderful and supportive wife and I know you two will get through anything together!! Love ya Steph

  2. i like your music john. :)
    see you soon.

  3. John: I know you guys don't know me. I met Catrina (the way I know how to call her) back when your mom used to work at fGTE now Verizon.

    I have been in touch in Lottie and have asked for prayers for you guys.

    Glad that you will back to music...MUSIC IS THE HEART OF THE SOUL.

    Have you listen to "JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL' -Carrie Underwood? or REMEMBER WHEN- Alan Jackson.

    Lottie's Friend

  4. Yes John go back to the music!

    Psalm 40:1-3 (New King James Version)

    1 I waited patiently for the LORD;
    And He inclined to me,
    And heard my cry.
    2 He also brought me up out of a horrible pit,
    Out of the miry clay,
    And set my feet upon a rock,
    And established my steps.
    3 He has put a new song in my mouth—
    Praise to our God;
    Many will see it and fear,
    And will trust in the LORD.